Three months. It's now been three months since we left our second home in Ukraine to move on to new adventures in Lebanon. While this change was a good one for us on a number of levels, I am still feeling incredibly sad about leaving Kyiv, PSI, and so many of our friends behind in Ukraine.
What do I mean by "sad?" I mean that I still tear up when I think about people I worked with last year. When I look at the photos of all the Kyiv and Ukraine Instagram accounts that I follow I start to cry. When I see the photos of the fall colors and remember how much I loved walking through the park on a cool autumn day, drinking coffee and watching life go by, I get super nostalgic. So hence this particular post.
I am enjoying certain things about being in Lebanon. People here are so incredibly nice. Colleagues are wonderful, food is delicious, and it's such a fascinating part of the world to live in. That said, I've had a rough start to the school year. The students I teach are not well-behaved, and I haven't dealt with that for over a decade (since leaving Texas public school). I'm back in the system that grades on a 1-100 scale, and my students are O-B-S-E-S-S-E-D with every single point. I'm torn between completely lowering my expectations for grading to make my own life easier, and the disservice it will eventually do for the students. The work load is not incredibly heavy, mind you. I think I just put a lot of pressure on myself to do things well and misbehaved children in my classes holds that back.
Volleyball season just ended and I felt like I couldn't even really enjoy that because I'm so tired at the end of the school day. On the plus side, we traveled to Kuwait for our tournament so there's another country checked off the list that, let's be honest, I wouldn't be traveling to for holiday.
Next week is FINALLY fall break for us, and I think if I had to wait 5 more weeks until winter break I'd be finished. We are traveling to Slovenia for 5 days and then on to Vienna to catch the Christmas market. I'm literally ecstatic to get back into nature and away from my classroom. So hopefully you'll soon see an update on our first few months in Lebanon and hear about our adventures in Slovenia.
“Life is inherently risky. There is only one big risk you should avoid at all costs, and that is the risk of doing nothing.” – Denis Waitley